What is your peace of mind worth

I moved in here where I live in the country side, four years ago. I lost everything that one could lose in my previous life - starting with my father. Irony is I was prepared for that.

The rest of the losses that I incurred was in the end kind of like driftwood. It seemed that you do not lose anything you cannot live without. Even your children, especially when they want to leave.

2018 I stood up and I put my foot down for the truth. Not just my truth, the truth of the matter. I walked out I started over and I left behind that which did not make the move with me. Needless to say there was no one, not even a dog.

We are facing 2023, an amazing five years to reflect on; or come to a conclusion where I will be in the next five years.

I have against my initial decision not to give any assistance or options done so on both arenas. Which had its benefits, its negatives as well as informative bonuses along the way. Somewhere I first managed to get a daughter back, find my son and get a degree of understanding with my ex husband.

Seeing as things weren't meant to be smooth sailing I lost my daughter again, my son was going to move here and my ex husband got lost in translation. He decided time to find him a new wife which happens to be an old flame. That became the old flame because of me. As they are now one big happy family in training I lost a son as as well that just stopped phoning and never bothered to inform me of the move.

What have I to show for all this - nothing. What am I to do with the mayhem in their lives? Leave it be and dissappear. Back to the 2018 shotgun out of town girl.

Never question your initial decision. It will be the right thing for you. As for me - I did do my future self a favor by walking out clean. The faces may have changed but that is all.

Even your children is not worth your peace

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