Cautiously Hopeful

If you have been around a while, as well as being battered and bruised by the time you have been around - how do you know that you won't again be deceived.?

This is true for both parties to this agreement of sorts. The question begs how do you put yourself out there and risk helping, if it will be a big impact if it does go south.

I am very committed to my boundaries; one of which is - no one except the kids are welcome to stay over.

I am currently helping a friend I met online on a music group more or less two years ago. He is an older gentleman who has fallen on bad times more than once. I do know the feeling of having no safe space or home that is secure. My worst fear came true when I was put out on the street by my own mother.

I decided to assist him, because I can.

The irony of this situation is the one time he can be exited and feel safe and cares for; he is very anxious about the move. Whereas I am not sure why he is scared of meeting me. Has he been hiding information that is important or is he just overly cautious this time around. I do foresee this will be his last move before the grave.

I on the other hand have never put myself out there like this. Especially after what I lost I had not thought I would ever be able to trust anyone in my circle again. There were many attempts. This is not an attempt, this is a real struggle for a person who has hit rock bottom.

Remember to make magic. Words to live by. Let's see what the future holds for the two of us as friends face to face and not just a face on an application.